i hate love.. but i can't help loving him..

awww nobody's posting their comments na!! antagal tagal kong nawala eh! hehe owell i don't care... hahaha basta i get to post what's on my mind, im happy na...

i have just said in my previous entry that eversince i heard of SERGIO MORA.. i knew that my ex wasn't the greatest guy alive and i was sooo TRUE... and now i've got my eyes on another guy nanaman.. he's just my crush but GAWD i think im getting obsessed (nanaman) with crushes..

PRESENTING.....

RICARDO DOMINIC ROCO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG!!! he's my asawa narin!!! hahaha.. he's so so so soooo GWAPOOOO!! too bad he smokes... its a BIG turn off but still... LOOK AT THAT FACE!! my gawd!! then my friend - JESSIEWE told me that dom likes ATHLETIC GIRLS WITH SHORT HAIR!! shiiitttt!!! is she serious?!?! then she even told me that dom doesnt have a girlfriend!! OMG OMG OMGGGGG MAYBE HE;S WAITING FOR ME... (oh dream on Ria..) i just hope we get the chance to meet... but of course i won't put my hopes up cuz he's a celeb... uuuggghhh!! i even dreamt of him a while ago!! but ofcourse i know hanggang panaginip nalang xa.. but still.. if two people are meant for each other, it doesn't mean that they're meant for each other now RIGHT?! besides.. i have his "ideal girl" characteristics so i guess i might stand a chance... IF and only IF we get to meet!! hahaha!!!

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The Contender Finale

at 10pm last night (may 25) i watched the contender finale.. at first i was so frustrated because i controlled myself so much during the past week not to read anything about the contender finale fight resultsbecause i promised myself that i won't know who the winner is until tonight... and then my cousin just bursts in my room and says "HEY.. SERGIO WON!" come onnnn!!!!! he should've asked me first if i wanted to know who won!!!!

so okay.. sergio mora won!!! MY LATIN SNAKEEEE!!! my dream guy wonnn!!! Sergio "The Latin Snake" Mora is my dream guy... He's so poor yet he used poverty as his drive to strive harder and fulfill his dreams... he's such an inspiration... he's got it all... brains, brawn, looks, athleticism.. everything! he's so smart and he is willing to learn! he only finished high school but he read lots of books and stuff... and what can i say.. he's one of the most educated people one will ever know...

Now that i've heard of sergio mora... i realized that chris (my ex) isn't the greatest guy around... it opened my eyes to the fact that there are a lot more people out there that are much better and that i was just too close-minded and lazy not to look...

Sergio Mora is an inspiration to me now... i know i can do this! I was a lot more fortunate than him (being able to afford college and stuff) and i should take advantage of my luxury because not everyone enjoys the same things that i enjoy... I know that I can live my dreams the way he lived his... VIVA SERGIO MORA!!

"Not everything learned is taught" --- Sergio

SIGNS THAT SERGIO WILL WIN THE CONTENDER:

1. He's the only guy out of the 16 fighters to not hang his gloves in the "graveyard wall"...

2. Look at this picture.. it was taken at the press conference 1 day before fight night... LOOK AT THE BELT MANNN!!!! it's a signnnn!!!!!

3. Sergio had lots of close-ups and him not hanging his gloves on the graveyard wall was CLEARLY EMPHASIZED...

4. The Commentator said : "That's what Contender is all about... SERGIO MORA.. his mother, Ines doesn't have to work everyday of her life now..." That was said by the commentator BEFORE THE WINNER WAS ANNOUNCED... (i guess the commentator is psychic.. or he just favoured sergio more hehehe!!) peter didn't get that much close-ups and COMPLIMENTS...

oh guys gotta go.. contender finale replay!! ahhaah talk about being ADOX!! cya all later! muahmuah!

Posted at 10:50 am by quistis14
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i had my hair cut a while ago... its my first time to have this kind of style.. hehehe!!! sana bagay... see the pics!!

okay ba? hehehe

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METEOR GARDEN is being televised again! yippeeee!!! im sooo happy because im hopelessly addicted to that chinovela... it makes me happy because i have something to look forward to everyday but it hurts me all the same time because im watching an immortalized version of my love story with chris...<my ex> (me as shan tsai and him as my dao ming sz)... okay call me retarded or mental or whatever.. but the similarities are just sooooo MENTAL!! (or was it pure coincidence?)...

CHRIS as my dao ming sz: he's got pride... he's the only son (but he's got a sister... dao ming sz had a sister too right?).... he's rich... he's like a kid... at first glance, he'd seem like the type of guy who's "off limits" but when he falls in love, he lets all his guards down...

ME as shan tsai: stubborn, has pride, loves the guy but is too dumb to admit it, always ready for "battle"... always found reason to fight/argue with her guy... always ran away from him (figuratively of course)

~MG1: okay... lets recall MG1's story shall we? she hated him at first, she liked another person (hua ze lei)... she earned his respect... he eventually fell in love with her... became friends... he made his way slowly into her heart by doing all those kilig things... and they eventually became lovers... dao ming sz always protected shan tsai, he comforted her... he was simply there for her... and everytime she'd go far away... he'd always go after her and make her come back...

"no matter where you go.. even in the depths of hell... or at the end of the earth... i'll go after you..." -dao ming sz

so here's my story...
i liked another guy then... and i hated chris before because i thought he was too mayabang... we eventually became friends and we actually got along well... little by little... we fell in love... i was this stubborn girl who only complicated things.. but chris had his way of straightening it up... and everytime id "go away" from him.. he'd always do something to go after me and make me come back *me going away means me attempting to break up with him*... he always comforted me... and always watched my back...

i even remember him saying "do you hate me that much?" when i was rude to him... actually.. dao ming sz told shan tsai the exact same thing when he realized that shan tsai would love no other person than hua ze lei... its weird though... even the sentences match... >_<

~MG2: so here's MG2's story... dao ming sz had amnesia..he forgot about his feelings for shan tsai... even when everybody wanted them back together, he still doesnt want to because he can't and won't believe that shan tsai was his girlfriend... poor shan tsai had to do everything she can to win her ah sz back... (in short...it was her turn to make her way into dao ming sz's heart... just like what ah sz did before in season one)... f3, qing he, chin, and everyone else tried to help.. but ah sz was much too stubborn... all he wants was just friendship with shan tsai... then there was a point where hua ze lei entered the picture.. he was slowly falling in love with shan tsai (and i assumed the feelings were reciprocated) since dao ming sz had another woman to love...

here's my story:
it's been six months since we broke up... but i still love him so... and now i think that its my turn to earn his love back... to make my way into his heart... i needed every help anyone can give...all our friends wanted us back together and they helped me talk chris into it... but he seems to have made up his mind about me... and he just wanted us to be friends... *how sad*... and im not giving up...

in the end... shan tsai and dao ming sz got back together...

the only difference now.. is that... i don't think my meteor garden with chris is finished yet... (or is it just because i don't want it to be finished?) i still didn't arrive at a point in my life where i had to go to the rooftop of a building and shout "ke zhao yang! wo hen ai ni!" (chris, i love you!) <although that wasn't what shan tsai exactly said but why will i say it? chris didn't lose his memory anyway>
and it still didn't come to a point in my life that i had a "hua ze lei" to fall in love with in order to make chris jealous and remember his feelings for me...

im still hoping that in the end... it'll be chris and me... just like what happened to shan tsai and dao ming sz... and i hope our meteor garden love story didn't end yet... i hope there's still a chance... i hope that this is all just a bad episode of my life wherein i actually had to hope for someone to love me the way he used to... wherein i had to cry over him and tried to do everything in my power to win him back but nothing worked... wherein i got defeated in a battle that i started... and that chris won't fall in love with me again...

im still hoping that we'll have a happy ending... but... if we don't end up like how i hoped for us to end our story... im sure God has a better plan for us... besides.. there's no need to hurry things up right? we're still young... and as the saying goes... if two people are meant for each other... it doesn't mean that they are meant for each other now... so i know there's still hope.. as long as i won't give up... but when the time comes that i meet my "hua ze lei" and we fall in love.. and chris doesnt come back to get me... i guess i'd have to pursue that "hua ze lei"... =)

speaking of hua ze lei... i would just like to quote something shan tsai thought while she was on a date with lei and they went kite-flying...

"ang pagmamahal sa isang tao ay parang pagpapalipad ng saranggola... mayroong tali sa pagitan mo at ng mahal mo.. at hanggang hindi mo binibitawan ang taling naguugnay sa inyong dalawa, hindi kailanman malalayo sayo ang mahal mo..." (i dunno if those were the exact words... but they have the same essence anyway...)

so i guess... i'd just have to put my trust on that saying... and i won't put much thought on my love for chris anymore... if it's him then it's him... if not.. then it's someone better... my love for chris will never cease... nor it will be gone... love doesnt go away... it just takes a new form... when the time comes that i find my "lei" and that i get tired of waiting for my "ah sz"... i'd probably still love chris... it'll only be in a new form...

(sorry for the long entry you guys... im just bored hehehe.. and its like.. the spur of the moment! tee-hee!!)

Posted at 08:23 am by quistis14
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yesterday was an interesting day for me.. I ACTUALLY MADE SOMEONE CRY because of her stupidity!!!

see.. there's this issue about certain newbies in teentalk that are in desperate need of new attitudes! (shempre i won't tell who diba)

anyways... me and KANG (gillian) were all sending messages that we miss our batchmates in teentalk since there are lots of sucky newbies na nga (however, there's still good ones) then there was this fight thing na pero we resolved it din..

BUT THERE'S THIS ONE BITCH who thought she'd resolve the entire fight thing by being a "pa-hero" and getting herself involved!!! she group texted us something like

"sa mga old members ng teentalk sana wag naman kayong mayabang.. blahblahblah"

KUMULO DUGO KO!! as in!!! i replied and this was my reply:

"SA MGA NAGSASABING MAYAYABANG OLD TEENTALKERS LISTEN UP: hindi kami nagyayabang.. and kung mayabang man kami... MAY MAIPAGMAMAYABANG NAMAN KASI KAMI.. sana lang hindi nakikisawsaw yung ibang WALA NAMANG ALAM TALAGA sa mga nangyayari"

tapos that bitch replied to me "what's wrong" NA KUNYARI INOSENTE EFFECT PA! ggrrrrr

so bottomline is... MAY INAWAY AKO KAHAPON because she tried to get herself involved.. EH ANG LAKAS NG LOOB NIA SHE ONLY KNOWS ONE SIDE OF THE STORY! buti sana if she bothered to ask other people's side diba?!?!?! ANG KITID TLGA NG UTAK!

tapos she even told me may isang girl daw who hates me because im beautiful but i dont have to flaunt it naman.. PUTANG INA! when did i ever flaunt/made yabang na maganda ako! HECK i don't even say na "oi ang ganda ganda ko tlga!" (siguro pa-joke pero i only do that to my family) AS IN ANG KAPAL NG FACE NUNG GIRL!!! she doesnt even know me pero she has the guts to say that to me! putang ina!

so what happened was, i texted all my friends and asked them na sa span of time na nakilala nila ako.. NI MINSAN BA nagyabang ako sa kanila na maganda ako! they all said the same thing "no ria.. d mo niyabang na maganda ka"... one of my friends even told me "hindi mo sinasabing maganda ka.. ang mga tao ang nagsasabi nian sau!" GRABE TLG PUTAH ANG KAPAL..

so sinabi ko dun sa biatch na ANG KITID NG UTAK NIA at hindi ko niyayabang na maganda ako... na-damage daw xa dun sa sinabi kong makitid ang utak nia and UMIYAK DAW xa.. dinadramahan nia pa nga friends namin eh! PFT! putang ina nia she deserved it!

MORAL LESSON #1: huwag umepal sa issues na WALA KAYONG ALAM

MORAL LESSON #2: NEVER MESS WITH AN ASSASSIN WHO SLITHERS!! otherwise you might get killed (either by words or by actions)

my message to that fuckin bitch: GO TO HELL AND BURN THERE YOU BITCH!!!!!

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FIRST THINGS FIRST:
thanks to my uberly talented twin... she made my new banner... hehehe..

SECOND ISSUE:
RESHUFFLING...

goodbye BSN1-A... >_< we're going to get reshuffled DAW... but people are trying to make a petition against reshuffling... it made me think.. WHAT'S SO BAD WITH RESHUFFLING?? at least you get to meet your other batchmates and make new friends diba?

THIRD ISSUE:
PROFILE DAY TOM IN MILO BBALL...

it's our second to the last day na sa milo bball clinic bukas... aww!! imma miss my CRUXEEESSS!!!
(btw... yea i forgot to put it here.. i have 2 cruxees sa milo bball..

1.) si KUYA... grabe he's sooooo KUYA... hahaha no nid to explain...
2.) si pope.. he reminds me so much of my ex kasi eh!!! tapos.. THEY KNOW EACH OTHER PA!! hahaha)

anyways.. its profile day tom.. its sort of like an exam... i hope i pass hahaha!!

FOURTH ISSUE:
MIRACLE...

i dunno if some nice demon possessed me today or if our helper put some weird ingredient in my pancit canton... but.. I ACTUALLY CLEANED MY ROOM... hahaha its a miracle since i like it being magulo and all... but i actually cleaned it today!! hahaha te-hee!

FIFTH ISSUE:
ABRA...

its been really bothering me that ABRA is always on the news.. my dad is the batallion commander (sa military) there... and he told us that its really magulo there.. all the politics and stuff... im just really really praying for his safety... i hope he gets transferred to a safer assignment kasi everybody here worries... especially my lola.. owell....

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OIII!! pwede na ba isubmit to sa Candy teen model search?
tell me kung alin pinakamaganda para i-send ha? tnxu tnxu! muah!

FIRST AND SECOND PIC

THIRD AND FOURTH PIC

RESPONSES:
ATE CUTEE: aylabyu too!! muah muah!
ATE MARJ: sure ill link ur site! muah!
NIKKI: hiyee!! tnx for visiting! muah!
SHAYNE: wahaha sana nga
ECKS: hahaha tnxu tnxu!
RITZ~CNG: waaahh!! sowee! hahaha labyu!
PANGO: tnxu tnxu
KUYA YUHI: AW!! kinikilig ako! dumalaw ka! hihi tnxu tnxu!
LABZ LHIANNE: sure link exchange! muah!

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just got back from a vacation.. we went to abra-vigan-laoag... hehehe me and my 3 best friends in the world BIRDIE, JOY, and JOYCE.. hehe

10 HOURS YUNG BIYAHE!!! grabe!!!! hahaah nakakapagod >_<

ABRA: we just went to my dad's military camp cuz he's the batallion commander there... natulog kami dun tapos in the morning, we were off to vigan..
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VIGAN: ang saya dun!!! parang intramuros only better! hehe... daming old houses, calesas, tapos maganda yung cathedral nila dun! nakakatawa nga nung nagmass kami nung sunday dun eh.. ILOCANO YUNG MASS!! omg hindi ko maintindihan!!!!! hahahaha grabe nag-day dream tuloy ako about.. ahehehe!!! yiki!

LAOAG: we went to Marcos's Museum.. hindi namin nakita yung mausoleum ni Marcos (andun daw yung katawan nia eh) kasi pumutok yung powerhouse nila... nilock yung pinto... malas!!!
tapos eto pa... yung hotel daw namin madami daw mulot kasi yung friend ko taga-abra! ayun.. sabi nia dami daw multo dun.. haha scary.. pero buti nalang hindi nagparamdam...

eto pics...

FIRST PICTURE::: sleeping joy
SECOND PICTURE::: sleeping joyce
THIRD PICTURE::: sleeping helen..

THE CULPRIT!!! (haha mahirap talaga pag naiiwang gising si Ria.. kung ano anong mischief ang nagagawa! haha) in fairness ako lang ang gising nian.. tulog silang lahat.. tawa nga ng tawa yung driver e haha


me and joyce... GOOD BYE CRUEL WORLD.. TATALON NA KAMI.. wahaha

birdie helen and joy... "asan ang mga katutubo?"

sa room ko yan... dito sa manila.. hehe kulay blue na nga.. may poster pa ng ONE BIG FIGHT ATENEO.. so halatang halatang room ko yan haha L-R: Joyce, Birdie Helen, Me, Joy... TINGNAN NIO YUNG PILLOW NA HUG HUG KO.. hahaha!!!! the chris pillow!! ahhaha kasi pillowcase nia yung shirt ni chris haha la lang.. labyu chris

ako yan sa beach.. haha la lang...wrote my name on the sand para cute haha


L-R::: Joy, Helen, Joyce, Me, My dad.. hehe

sa calesa!! hehe driver daw ako! haha

L-R: Joy, Me, Helen, Joyce... hehe sa resort room yan.. posing lang.. hehe

ME sa SAND DUNES IN LAOAG.. yea.. sorry boys im taken.. single but taken... wuhooo aylabyu chris!!!! (kahit chris doesnt love me back wahaha)

me with the marcos mannequin... wuhooo.. IM TAKEN!! hahaah taken for granted.. hahaha jk... taken by chris... too bad.. d nia alam.. HAHAHA.. single but taken..

me and my dad... sa isang chair sa vigan.. hehe... kalokohan nanaman haha

L-R: Joy, Helen, Joyce, Me... sa flowerbed... sa fort ilocandia... hehe

MGA SUGAROL!!! hahaha L-R: Me, Joyce, Joy, Helen.. naglalaro ng uno while brown out sa military camp sa abra.. we spent our 1st night there wehehe!!!!!

dinner in the streets of vigan!!! hehe L-R: helen, joy, my dad, joyce, me.. hehe

kunyari nalang si chris yung paa nung horse... hahaha!!!!! sa fort ilocandia yan... ahihihi

me"preaching" sa isang old cathedral sa vigan.. waw ha cathedral pinasukan ko pero tingnan ang suot.. RACERBACK TOP AND SHORT SHORTS.. yan ang bagong fashion statement ng mga pumapasok sa cathedral! ahhaha.. pero ang dilim nga lang.. mahina flash ng digicam ko e.. lowtech hahaha jk

MORE PICS COMING UP!!! TINATAMAD NAKO MAGUPLOAD E HAHAHA

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okay.. totoo na talaga to..

I WONT BELIEVE IN A STUUUPPPIIIDDDD THING CALLED LOVE ANYMORE...

and i deny it's existence na..

WHY??

1.) if love really existed.. WHY WOULD THERE BE PEOPLE INDIFFERENT AND INSENSITIVE ENOUGH TO FEEL AND TAKE ACTION AGAINST CRIME, POVERTY, HUNGER, AND ETC?!

2.) if love existed.. why would i feel bitter?

3.) if love existed.. why would there be abused wives and children? why would there be murderers, kidnappers, and thieves?

4.) if love existed... why would girls and boys feel pain over their relationships?

5.) if love existed.. why is my family broken? (i mean, im numb to the fact na hiwalay parents ko and all since its been such a long time na and im happy pa nga that they decided to separate.. its just that... ngaun ko lang naiisip ang lahat ng to)

ngayon ko lang naisip na ang love pala... ay isang malaking

BULLSHIT!

i mean, if there really is love.. why would people become selfish over it na gusto nilang makuha yung gusto nila?

sabi sa bible...LOVE IS PATIENT.. LOVE IS KIND.. IT DOES NOT TAKE OFFENSE.. IT IS NOT SELFISH.. IT NEVER BOASTS...

pero bat ganun? kung hindi xa selfish.. why does my mom love ONLY herself?! diba SELFISHNESS yun?!

tsaka.. if there's love.. baket yung mga lalakeng nakakabuntis, pag nalaman nilang nabuntis nila ung mga GF nila, they wont take responsibility for their actions, instead, IIWANAN NILA SA ERE UNG GIRLFRIEND NILA AND DENY THEIR MISTAKES... diba SELFISHNESS din yun?

okay maybe pessimism ko lang talaga to.. pero i won't believe in love anymore..

so that i won't hurt anymore.. i won't shed tears over some stupid love matters... i won't degrade myself and wallow in self pity because no one would like me...

SIGURO ill just believe in friendship love... GOD'S love for us... and love sa family and parents...

pero ROMANTIC LOVE...

NEVER...

unless may magturo saken to believe in it again...

patay na puso ko.. black na... im tired of hurting... im tired of loving... retire na muna to... maxado nang hirap ang puso ko sa pagpupump ng dugo.. ayoko na dagdagan ang obligasyon nia...

responses sa mga nag-tag:

ANONYMOUSTAB23X ::: tnxu tnxu!

BIG SIZIE KAREN::: hahaha ang cute cute nia kasi eh

ATE MAYE::: wahahahah welllll

RITZ~CNG::: onga mis narin kita!

ATE MAINE::: yup! hehhehe

KUYA SAYAD::: waaa!! tnx for droppin by!! Mistiu too po!

ZEENDEE::: heeyyyaaa!!! tnx for droppin by!

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last saturday, april 9 2005... pumunta kami sa meycauayan for nikki's debut...
overnight yun... we met her family and some friends
tapos inuman narin... its was my first time drinking tequilla cuz i dont really drink
(and i don't intend to anymore.. shempre nakakahiya naman kay nikki kung di ako iinom diba?!! hehehe)
saya kasi we almost didn't sleep!! (tapos i had to attend another debut on april 10!! o dba sobrang wasted! haha)
so ayun.. we took pics.. pumunta pa nga kami sa nearby cemetery eh! hehe... tapos ghost stories when the lights were off na... i met new friends din! grabe i had so much fun talaga! ang sasarap din ng food! hehe
anyways... eto pictures oh... have fun viewing them!!!

FIRST PICTURE::: dats me and kuya lloy-d... sa waterbed.. hahaha bangagerzzz!
SECOND PICTURE::: dats me and kuya Ryan.. nakaupo xa nyan... mejo wasted na kami haha
THIRD PICTURE: YAN ANG WASTED! ahaha me and kuya jed... look at our eyes mannn!!!! pero walang tulugannn!! haha *sorry guys kung malabo ung pics.. naka-night mode eh! hehehe

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FIRST PICTURE::: dats me and kuya JM!! hehehe
SECOND PICTURE::: (L-R) Kuya Jed, Sef, Me... sa waterbed nila nikki.. stehhgg!! haha
THIRD PICTURE::: me and sef! sa waterbed ulit! hehe

FIRST PICTURE::: me and sef ulit!! hehe
SECOND PICTURE::: me and adda! prettyfulz!!! hahah sa fx yan papunta kela nikki
THIRD PICTURE::: (L-R) Sef, Jambi, Me... hahaha tingnan mo naman yung mga mata namin noh?! hahaha

april 10, 2005 - debut naman ni Rizzatot... didn't get the chance to take many pics eh kasi mejo inaantok nako (2hours lang sleep ko from nikki's debut the night before.. tapos pagod pa from commuting, then pagdating ko ng haus ng 10am, naligo lang ako then nagsimba na ng 11:00am.. tapos after mass, derecho ako aikido class ko ng 1-3pm.. tapos derecho uwi.. ligo ulit.. then punta sa parlor para magpaayos.. tapos puyatan nanaman! ahhaah hectic ako maxado noh?! hahaha ok lang yun... para to take my mind off of some things hahaha) anyways... eto lang yung nakayanan kong pics na i-take and i-post hehehe...

FIRST PICTURE:: la lang out of boredom haha
SECOND PICTURE::: primary pic ko sa friendster to ngaun! hahaha
THIRD PICTURE::: parehas ng smile sa 2nd pic.. hahaha!!! pansin nio?! magkaibang side lang?! tsaka hindi pa ko naka-gown nian! wahahaha!!!!
FOURTH PICTURE::: wala lang nanaman hahaha

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